A year long timeframe - Lost and Found..!

Yes, the year gone has brought a lot of changes in my life. starting the year with few hundred dollars in my account, couple thousand dollars debt on the credit card, no car, no job - freshly graduated, with lot of aspirations and desires to fulfill...now Alhamdulillah i have got whatever i desired for and much much more. the path of my life has been flowing exactly as it has to be. with few friends found and then losing them...though it nullifies the situation and i dont lose anything here. but have learnt lessons out of it.
working on the same contract for almost 9 months now, with good bank balance of which i cant boost of, a stick shift car which i cruise on the narrow lanes with phone in my left hand and rotating my eyeballs all around to look for a cop alert, all crazy petty stuff that always excites me..like the 150GB pocket size USB drive, my new Nokia E51 business phone with wi-fi, the 7.2MP canon camera with a 2GB SD card, with which i have captured all the happy moments i had this year long. and yea..the tiny little GPS which i got today, though i never felt the need for one.
i find travelling very boring, though i love driving myself and visitng places. with visiting nowhere except Dallas before the year started, now Alhamdulillah I have been to many places starting with San Antonio, then Austin, now staying in denver, have been to colorado springs and other nearby cities, chicago - the most awaited trip for me. another big one coming in a month from now to LA, vegas and Grand Canyon...hope to meet few of my college friends there.
by the end of this year have a big plan on my way to India! inshallah that would be the best trip of my life..also 1 week from now and it will be 3 yrs in US!!
not many trials-ordeals for me this year though as they were 2 yrs before this. that doesnt mean i haven't learnt anything..Alhamdulillah i have learnt all kind of knowledge i needed and still in the process..lets see what the year coming will bring for me..!

What am I doing..?

Yes, I really wonder want am I doing. each day is passing along, time is making life move like a roller coaster. I know, I am working -> I am earning, but still why this thought is making my mind disturbed that I am not doing anything worthful.
I know I am fulfilling all the expectations I have from self...but...am I expecting something from others..? from the world...? may be, and I feel this isn't doing good to me. so now what? don't care for the people around me? dont care for my friends...no thats not a good idea...then what...i dont see any solution to my restlessness. life takes you through all ups and downs. this is a good time for me , yet i have my own complains, how selfish it is on my part...
My weakness..may be m weak at heart, i take everything to my heart, when i see something or hear someone i view it from all possible angles. no matter if it isn't of any importance to me or even if it is important to me but is noway concerned for the other party. well thats how i am...and have to cope with it. today i have learnt a lesson though. no, again m wrong...i havent learnt, i have just gone through a lesson. moral of the lesson is below, I dont know when i can grasp it.
"Expecting the world to treat you fairly, is like expecting a lion not to eat you , coz you are a vegetarian"
someone can break your trust within a second with the utterance of a single word. everyone knows that trusting someone other then your own self is foolishness...yet people like me make these kind of mistakes often. Yes, every human is different, with slightest magnitude or totally opposite. your image in the mirror can differ from your personality sometimes. its all your perception. and the perceptions are hard to change..rather nobody likes to change their own.
So whats this all upto? I need to change my self and become strong hearted or feeling less like other people or just be in my cocoon and never try to look out of it. the latter will surely make my life boring and make me boring as a human, but thats what i might prefer from now, after a shattering experience...

PS:- comments are not expected, as my thoughts are noway concerned to any reader. everybody thinks different...