Its still all the same. same place, same work, same people, same car, same casuals, same attitude. what changed is the calendar on my wall. yes, its about 6 months when i became so unrest and desperate to go on a vacation and meet my family. never thought i could be blessed with staying with them for 6 long months. celebrating the two joyous Eids with them and attending about a dozen marriages of my friends. the moments cannot come back but can only be thought of and cherished. it was a bonus for me. surely a blessing in disguise from the Almighty (Alhamdulillah).
Looking back now it feels as if i never went on a vacaton. the cycle of life and struggle to find something that is engulfed in the darkness of future has started again. it was so tough for me to leave my family again, the people whom i care and who cares me more than i do. i tried to be tough and did not cry. yes, the reason is known one.
I look back and think whether i did my best for my family in these 6 months ? may be yes and may be no. it falls short no matter how much you do. you are always indebted. i have regrets. but hey, you cant be perfect in life. this is how you learn and improve yourself as a being.
Alhamdulillah for everything..and looking forward to another of such trip in future! :)
time to get ready for work..
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